Last Minute

Scott McShawshank I never knew what I would be thinking when I got here. I always assumed it would have been something about my friends and family. Don’t get me wrong there is definitely some of that but not as much as I expected. As I stand here, I think about how my family will …

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Wait Until It’s Over

Nothing that I write it supposed to inflict depressed thoughts on anyone. These are just some struggles that I have shoot through my head from time to time. Scott McWaitingroom Does it ever feel like you’re just wasting your life? You haven’t done anything impressive and everyone around you has. Some people have kids and …

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Down the Rabbit Hole

Scott McAliceinWonderland “Turn the TV off,” she said. I know that we were running late already, but she didn’t need to tell me to turn the TV off. I’m not that easily distracted. I can have some background noise on if I want. It probably helps me work faster than otherwise, since being left to …

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Bored of Existence

Idea by: Nikos Koufus Written by: Scott McAllknowingandpowerful I find it interesting. The first thing that my creations did was develop time. Even the very first ones knew about time before they discovered time. I have never had the privilege of feeling time. For me, nothing ages: It just changes. The grass that grows. The …

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Don’t Move

Scott McStationary Lay still. Don’t move. What will happen if I stand?   The window looks welcoming. The mouthwash looks delicious. There’s a knife in the kitchen. There’s a gun in the basement.   Don’t move. Eyes open. What will happen if I stand?   I could swing from the rafters. Start the car, garage …

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Best-Case Scenario

Scott McOptimism You know, there are more thoughts than you would think that go into suicide. No one will ever need to talk me out of it because of the fears that I have that keep me from it. What if I try to hang myself and the rope snaps? I don’t want to be …

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Flavor of Life

Scott McTasty You look and search and wait and crave. It’s amazing how much weight you give the unseen drive for something you’ve never felt or experienced. Everything, and I mean everything, revolves around this unsung emotion, one that avoids you like the people that you push yourself away from. You work day in and …

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Constructive Criticism

Scott McBargainshopper It’s on sale now for $8.96 from Walmart. If I order the hard hat and everything else that I need, I might be able to get free shipping; all I need to do is spend more than $35.00. Actually, I don’t need the free shipping, I’ll just pick it up later. I don’t …

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The Step

I am depressed. It's as simply un-simple as that. I have depression. I frequent thoughts of suicide, and for some of you, they are more frightening than your biggest fears. I have no intention of killing myself, yet nobody really intends to kill themselves until they're stricken with the sudden feeling of hopelessness that nobody …

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Harpoon Gun

To start this blog, I'll be posting semi-frequently so that I can get some of my older written work out to the public (or as I'm writing this, five people and my Facebook friends) and then get on a more regular schedule. I don't write every day but I do my best. On some days …

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